I’m Not Good Enough

Isn’t it wonderful how God uses people to further His cause? He used a murderer (Moses) to free His people. He used an adulterer (David) to become King. And He used a young virgin girl to become the mother of His child.

You might read these stories in the Bible and believe God has no way to use you. After all you aren’t as prophetic as these people were. You’re nowhere near perfect, and I can’t possibly know the sins you’ve done in the past. How can God use you?

Jesus didn’t hang around the saints. In fact, some of his best friends were sinners. Matthew was a tax man. In Jesus’s time, tax men were considered some of the most dishonest men around. They were notorious for stealing and lying. Paul was a Pharisee. He was there at the stoning of Stephen.  You can’t get much worse than a person responsible for killing Christians.

You might be saying to yourself that you aren’t as good a Christian as others. You’re too new a follower to do anything in the name of Christ. You should never allow anyone, not even yourself, to look down on you just because you don’t know all the verses of the Bible or because you’re a new believer. 1 Timothy 4:12 reads, Don’t let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in conduct, in love, in faith and in purity.

God can use anyone, no matter where their walk might be. People have gifts to give others. Do you believe the person who cleans the church is less important than the man who stands behind the pulpit? No. Without a clean church, there would not be many people attending to listen to the man preach.

You might have something in your past God plans to use to help others. Were you a victim of child abuse? A lot of people are, and they need help to realize they are worth God’s love. Did your husband leave you for another woman? Maybe you can teach other women in the same predicament how to move on with their lives. Your past could be an opening door for someone going through the same thing.

As a kid, I went to church and slept through it. As a teen, I only went with a friend because I thought she was cool. I was wrong. I had a child out of wedlock in my early twenties, married and divorced a man in my thirties. I was a smoker and a heavy drinker who stopped for good when my youngest daughter was born. I’ve smoked marijuana and taken speed.

I finally returned to church when my youngest was five because her dad was teaching her to be sneaky. I wanted her to feel like someone was watching all the time. I don’t know how it happened. I just had a revelation one day that I was saved.

Who am I today? I’m still an unwed mother, a divorced woman, and a former drug user. I’m also a Christian author and a co-leader of a woman’s Bible study class. More importantly, I am a King’s daughter.

Trust me. If God can use the likes of me, He can surely use you.